The Day I Found Abundance in the Midst of Scarcity

"Will we be alright?"

I was out for a run. I was hearing my heavenly Father's voice. I was becoming sure in love. It was glorious.

Over the last month, He was only saying one thing. It was a daily, hourly, minute-by-minute floodgate of His good pleasure, His presence.

“I love you, Jason.” God whispered to me. It was so sweet, and yet the question I'd asked Him seemed fair, “Will we be alright?”

“I love you, Jason.”

We had followed God faithfully and now we were over a year behind on our mortgage, our fridge was nearly empty, our pantry, a ghost town. The bill collectors and the lawyers left their threatening voicemails every morning, they wanted their pound of flesh.

“I love you, Jason.”

It was so sweet, and yet the question I'd asked Him seemed fair, “Will we be alright?”

I got home at dusk. There was just enough time to mow the small unruly patch of grass in our front yard. And there were still fumes in the mower, enough to accomplish the task.

I settled into the seemingly mundane routine, but my heart never left fellowship with my good Father.

“I love you, Jason.”

And I reveled in His love. It was more than enough. I was growing sure and no circumstance would change my mind. He is good. Always.

“I love you, Jason.”

I stood on the front porch in the last light of day with a suddenly new thought. It was heaven sent, it was revelatory, it was bigger, and greater, and more powerful than any other thought I’d ever had.

“It’s measureless! Your love is measureless!”

"And I reveled in His love. It was more than enough. I was growing sure and no circumstance would change my mind. He is good. Always."

 

At that moment, everything in my life changed.

Of course! We would be alright!

Laughing, I went in to kiss Karen and hug the kids. Karen kissed me lightly and the kids ran away giggling. I needed a shower.

In the shower I sang, “I’m becoming like you, I’m becoming like you. Let Your love be all I know, till Your glory becomes my own.” 

I leapt from the shower, wrapped myself in a towel, ran into our bedroom, riffled through papers on Karen’s nightstand, found a pencil, then back to the bathroom dripping on the linoleum, I wrote...

I’ve been Your echo, I’ve been Your shadow
But my heart is to know You so I can be Your voice

I’ve stood on mountains, I’ve knelt in valleys
From glory to glory my heart will always be Yours

I'm becoming like You, I’m becoming like You
It's the cry of my heart my King, that I’d display Your majesty

I'm becoming like you, I'm becoming like you
Let Your love be all I know, till Your glory becomes my own

Oh, let Your glory come down
Let Your goodness surround, we’re singing
Oh, this revival sound
It's shaking the ground, it's transforming us

I have played this song over the years and many have asked about it. It’s my love song to Him, and I thought it was time to tell the story of the day I found His abundance in the midst of scarcity.

A few years ago I recorded it for an EP. You can listen at the link below.

Link to song - https://jasonclarkis.bandcamp.com/track/becoming-like-you

Jason Clark is a writer, speaker and lead communicator at A Family Story ministries. His mission is to encourage sons and daughters, fathers and mothers, to grow sure in the love of an always-good heavenly Father. He and his wife, Karen, live in North Carolina with their three children. Website: www.afamilystory.org