I was out for a run and I was asking Father God if we would be alright. After two years, I was hearing God again; I was becoming sure in a daily, hourly, minute-by-minute floodgate of His good presence. Sweeter still, in the last month He was only saying one thing.
“I love you Jason.”
We were several months behind on our mortgage, our fridge was nearly empty, our pantry was a ghost town. The bill collectors and the lawyers wanted their pound of flesh.
“I love you Jason.”
But the question I'd asked Him seemed fair, “Will we be alright?”
I got home as dusk settled. There was just enough time to mow the small unruly patch of grass in our front yard. And there were still fumes in the mower.
I settled into the seemingly mundane routine, but my heart never left fellowship with my good Father.
“I love you Jason”.
I stood on the front porch in the last light of day with one thought. It was heaven sent, it was revelatory, it was bigger, and greater, and more powerful than any other thought I’d ever had.
“It’s measureless! His love is measureless!”
In that moment, everything in my life changed.
We would be alright.
… Laughing I went in to kiss Karen and hug the kids. Karen kissed me lightly but then she and the kids ran from me while informing me that I needed a shower.
In the shower I sang, “I’m becoming like you, I’m becoming like you. Let Your love be all I know, till Your glory becomes my own”. I leapt from the shower, wrapped myself in a towel, ran into our bedroom, riffled through papers on Karen’s nightstand, found a pencil, then back to the bathroom dripping on the linoleum, I wrote...I’ve been Your echo, I’ve been Your shadow But my heart is to know You so I can be Your voice I’ve stood on mountains, I’ve knelt in valleys From glory to glory my heart will always be Yours I'm becoming like You, I’m becoming like You Its the cry of my heart my King, that I’d display Your majesty I'm becoming like you, I'm becoming like you Let Your love be all I know, till Your glory becomes my own Oh, let Your glory come down Let Your goodness surround, we’re singing Oh, this revival sound Its shaking the ground, its transforming us
Many of you have heard me lead this song in worship over the last years. Many have asked when I would record it.
This song is one of the four that will be on the EP titled Heaven’s Crush. This song is an invitation into transformative Love. There is life on this song and album!
My heart is to release this album with my new book, Prone To Love, which releases Feb 18.
We have 9 days left to raise the funding to get this album mixed. If you feel led, please give. If you can’t give, please consider sharing on Facebook and Twitter. Go to the link below for more information on the album, to give, and share.
Thanks to everyone who has been with us on the journey and to those who have given! I am truly blessed!
Below is a small excerpt of the unmixed pre-production vocal recording I have been working on these last months with faithful friends. It just needs to be mixed.
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